My Health:
I've just been looking in the bathroom mirror. I'm a mess. My hair is lank and greasy because I couldn't be bothered to get showered this morning. I was hungover and felt like shit. I've got bags under my eyes and I look gaunt. I'm getting niggly pains in my body and I cannot kid myself that my back pain is caused by sleeping awkwardly. It's not, it's my kidneys processing the toxins.
I'm so tired of being sick and tired thinking about alcohol. When can I have it, where will I get it and how much can I have?
All alcohol does to me is make me tired.... I get home from work, wine o'clock is generally 6 o'clock and by 8.30pm I'm pretty much knackered and ready to pass out into bed. I have no life - the wine sees to that.
Tomorrow... On the first day of 2017, I intend to do 'dry January'. I hope to succeed beyond this. I know it will be hard but I have to give it a go.
There are many many reasons why I want to be sober. I'd like to list them here as and when I need to and re-read them when I falter, because falter I will.
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